Wow, comments

To the few of you that left comments, thanks, I was starting to think I was blogging to myself here...

I'm in the North Midwest now. Taking care of family business. Not a good thing, lots of manual labor that I don't necessarily want to be doing. Makes me remember that I am alone, but I'm trying to keep my head up and remember that I have some good friends. When I get back, back to looking at getting my personal life back on track. Its only a matter of time until I get something new to occupy my time.

I won't lie and say life is good, its actually kinda not good, but its still going, so thats a start.

Tired of being unhappy

I finally spoke to the ex today, trying to set something up to get the ring back. she is SOOOO busy with work and the new boyfriend that it will not be until September that she can get together. at least it will get done.

I'm tired of being alone, and i'm tired of being unhappy. i'm ready to start trying to move on, if i can find the right girl. its going to be a slow process, but we'll see how it goes.

Bored and Lonely

In some soul searching, I realized that as much as I hate to admit it, I'm a social person, which is odd, since I hate people in general. I just don't like to be alone. I need a woman to make me happy. I know it sounds sad of me, and I fully admit that it is kinda sad on my part. oh well, I can't do much about it at this point. I want to love and be loved. I've been there a few times and miss it and would do just about anything to get back there. The phrase "I'd do anything for one more night with you in my arms" comes to mind a lot. I'm going to see the family farm for the last time before it is sold off and made into a strip mall next week, I'm kinda bummin about that. All and all, I'm starting to feel depression coming on again, but no one around me has any idea. It only affects me when I am alone or trying to sleep, and i'm probalby killing myself by holding it all in. I guess we'll just see how it goes.

Celebrating time to myself

Holiday weekend. 4 days with the house to myself. Both good and bad. I would rather be spending time with friends, or that someone special, but since they are all busy with their own thing, or non-existant, house work it is. I'm finally gonna get it clean and make it look like i've been here for the 8 months that i have. At least that is the plan, along with a few other odds and ends i want to accomplish. positive positive positive. that is the goal. I'm tired of being drug down by my situation. I may even go out and get drunk tonight. probably not, but hey, it would be a start.