Did not work out

the response was a resounding no. funny how much that can hurt. For the time being, trying to get on to bigger and better things, though it is extremely difficult. back to throwing myself into work and trying to be there for others since i do not let anyone be there for me.

One more try?

We are both talking to other people, but are still connected. Would it really be that bad to find out if it is as real as we once believed, and if we can salvage what once was so great? All i can ask for is a chance, a chance to see if I can be the man you needed, wanted, loved....

3 is now 0

new year girl has now told me that what happened only proved that there is no chemistry and she is still too weireded out to hang out. really sucks cause i felt a bit of a connection. girl 3 is getting to attached so i had to tell her we needed to back off. that sucks cause i really didn't want to hurt her. she is such a sweetheart. the girl that i am still in love with finally talked to me, but told me she is "talking" to a guy she works with, and occationally crashes there, but nothing sexual has happened. it really wouldn't matter, we are broken up. I just want a chance to prove that things can be better and what we both need and want. she keeps saying that she doesn't know if she/we can ever be what we were again. i am going to try to get her to go out this weekend, just small steps, nothing exclusive but just a chance to see if we may be able to recapture something. I am also seeing an increase in work hours again, as well as staying home sick today. all in all, life really sucks again and i'm feeling the depression setting in again. any suggestions?