Sunday, May 28, 2006

Holy Crap She's Married!!!

No, not the ex (well, not that I know of, but I'll get back to that), but the new woman in my life. I am currently playing the role of "personal therapy". I'm not exactly sure how I feel about that at the moment. #4 is someone that I have gotten to be very close friends with over the last few months, is having marital issues, and is trying to decide if the marriage is something that can be saved. I've somehow become "the other man", but her husband is ok with things as long as we don't have sex, which I agree with and have sworn that I wouldn't unless they got divorced or I was so drunk that I wouldn't remember it. Can my life get a little more confusing. I really like this one too, and if she were totally single I would be all about us, but as it is, i obviously have to be more restrained.

The ex is in vegas with co-workers and her new beau. I have rather mixed emotions, espeically since there are a lot of signs pointing to a vegas quicky wedding, but I guess we'll deal with that down the road. We are suppose to get together to catch up sometime shortly after she gets back.

#2 still really doesn't talk to me much, but we are slowly getting back to where we might be able to salvage the friendship. I'm really hoping that works out.

#3 is just not getting the hint that I need to be apart from her for a while to figure out my thoughts so I can stop hurting her. I feel like shit about it, and she is a sweetheart, but the timing wasn't/isn't right, and I can't give her the relationship that she wants. between the feelings I still have for my ex and the unique situation I have with #4, I just can't do that to her anymore. We still talk, but for the time being I am keeping some distance so we don't fall into the same routine.