Bored and Lonely

In some soul searching, I realized that as much as I hate to admit it, I'm a social person, which is odd, since I hate people in general. I just don't like to be alone. I need a woman to make me happy. I know it sounds sad of me, and I fully admit that it is kinda sad on my part. oh well, I can't do much about it at this point. I want to love and be loved. I've been there a few times and miss it and would do just about anything to get back there. The phrase "I'd do anything for one more night with you in my arms" comes to mind a lot. I'm going to see the family farm for the last time before it is sold off and made into a strip mall next week, I'm kinda bummin about that. All and all, I'm starting to feel depression coming on again, but no one around me has any idea. It only affects me when I am alone or trying to sleep, and i'm probalby killing myself by holding it all in. I guess we'll just see how it goes.