3 is now 0

new year girl has now told me that what happened only proved that there is no chemistry and she is still too weireded out to hang out. really sucks cause i felt a bit of a connection. girl 3 is getting to attached so i had to tell her we needed to back off. that sucks cause i really didn't want to hurt her. she is such a sweetheart. the girl that i am still in love with finally talked to me, but told me she is "talking" to a guy she works with, and occationally crashes there, but nothing sexual has happened. it really wouldn't matter, we are broken up. I just want a chance to prove that things can be better and what we both need and want. she keeps saying that she doesn't know if she/we can ever be what we were again. i am going to try to get her to go out this weekend, just small steps, nothing exclusive but just a chance to see if we may be able to recapture something. I am also seeing an increase in work hours again, as well as staying home sick today. all in all, life really sucks again and i'm feeling the depression setting in again. any suggestions?