I feel old (this time its not emotionally)

I think I broke my hip. It feels like bone on bone grinding in the socket. This is an old soccer injury that just seems to pop up periodically. It is painful as hell, and makes me limp noticably if I have to be on my feet much. I need one of those medi-aid alert things for when I finally fall and fully break it.

I'm just not in the mood for sex questions right now. With my hip being what it is, even if I had a special someone (be it Mrs. Right or Mrs. RightNow), I don't think I could enjoy myself. In reality, I'm sure I'd find a way, but nothing too acrobatic.

I have come to the conclussion that I am the only person that everyone where I work likes. I'm also the one that everyone goes to with questions, whether it has anything to do with what I do or not. I am the company sounding board aparently, and I have enough intellegence/experience with everything so I seem to be able to help with anything.

Someone asked me how things with the ex were today. I know they could see it in my eyes when I put up my front and said "fuck her". I then went into the standard "I still care and want her to be happy, we were good friends first, blah blah blah". While I meant it, it still kinda hurt to hear me say it and mean it. It kinda went with my quote from yesterday (she was my angel, it was even her pet name). I am getting seperated from the situation she left me in, and starting to come out of the headache that was worrying about what I did wrong. I am choosing to be the bigger person.

On a slightly different note, I was the most obnoxious person at work today. It was great fun, and everyone loves me, so I got it back just as much as I threw out. My inner 12 year old was out and active, I need to do this more often.

And E, yes, I'm a bit of a sell out. Free money is never a bad thing, and gas is too fucking expensive for my SUV. Every little bit helps. I would have thought a smart college girl like you would have picked up on that buy now...