Well now I understand at least (updated)

I talked to the girl for over an hour tonight and things are much clearer.

She still likes me. She has stated to me before that she didn't want a relationship. I took it as "right now I don't want to rush in". It was actually more based in the fact that she doesn't know if she will even be around past October and doesn't want to get into something that may cause issues for her like that. She is young and just wanting to have fun. She hasn't slept with anyone since we started talking, but she backed off because she knew I was wanting something more than she was willing right now. I'll admit it, you were all right.

Things will be ok I guess. We talked through things. There are no questions about where we stand and what may or may not be. Timing is just really fucking bad. I seem to have that issue with all the women that come into my life.

She has been frustrated because I kept trying to make it have to be something. She sees my side of everything, I see hers. She just wants me to relax and be her friend and if something happens it happens. I have to be ok with it. I do still like her and love spending time with her. We'll see how long I can keep it at that and not cause myself or her any more headaches.

If nothing else, I understand and can deal without overthinking and wondering and worrying.

**I'm much more comfortable for the time being with the situation with the girl, and I also officially got my promotion today, raise included. We'll see how long this better streak goes, but I'm gonna ride it while I can and try to be happy.