Good God I'm tired

The night out ended up being last night. My roommate got stupid drunk. The girl frustrated me more. Work pissed me off. I got to play sober after I got to the bar. Stayed until after 2 and had to be at work at 7. I'm hurting a little bit.

I'm generally in a weird mood.

I had a kinda talk with the girl last night as she was leaving. She and I have had some "kinda" discussions about what she wants of me or us. It keeps going back to the fact that she likes me, but she makes off the cuff comments about not really wanting a guy. She jokes about wanting "guys". I basically left it to her that I really like her, she seemed to like me but I can't read her anymore, and that if she doesn't really want the "boyfriend" type of dating that I'm cool with it while she figures out what she wants. I could see in her eyes that she generally likes me but is completely clueless of what she really wants. I jokingly offered to be whatever type of hookup she wants, which got a smile, especially since she commented that she couldn't come home with me last night after I promised to behave because "it only works if both behave". God I hate the inbetween casual dating/hook ups and actually dating. Either way, its pretty much in her court, but I'm still gonna be friendly and see if we can do something this weekend, even if its not a real date expectation.

Speaking of which, I've had 7-8 people ask me if we were dating in the last 24 hours, as well as 2 people telling me I'm out of my league in the last week. Everyone seems to see it between us, but she is still holding back. Of the 7-8, 5 are at the concert with her tonight. My only response was that we had gone out, I like her, but I don't know. I'm kinda wondering if its gonna come up at some point...

I've been contacted by one of my friends from corporate that one of our vendors was asking about me now also. This is a very cute girl with a lot of good comments coming from my friends up north. I had actually asked about getting together with the vendor and corporate friend the last time they were down and it wasn't able to work out. She was asking about my job, where I live, what kind of person I am, why I still do what I do and don't go somewhere else and things of that nature. Of course my friend put in all kinds of good about me, and is trying to set up a vendor visit in a few weeks. We'll see how that goes and if I know anything more on the current "girl" front by that point. If nothing is changed, at least I wouldn't really have to feel bad at all if I did hook up with her.

Work is getting really long again. I'm spending way too much time there, but its actually necessary for the next month or so. I'm actually having some of the promotion's workload dropped on me already, but no pay raise. This will only continue for a short while before I just stop doing it unti I get paid and my replacement.

Life goes on, and I'm trying to keep smiling