God I hate girls

I'm trying too hard... I haven't shot myself and ruined it all, but god damnit girls are hard to read. The comment that she made that I'm not the only one that thinks so also really messes with me mind. Other guy, random friend, other, not sure what the fuck is going on. But, at least i'm not killing myself trying like I was. She did respond well to that. We'll see. I still guess that the tell will be when she gets back from Florida, but I also am fully realizing that the best I can probably hope for is a friends with benefits thing, which I can deal with for a while, but we'll see. I do need to get laid kinda bad, but I'm just not the kind of guy that normally does that kind of thing knowing that it is just a sex thing. I'm a little buzzed, but mostly just wishing I wan't alone.