I am back

Oh and what a shitty weekend it has been. I got to spend 3 days with my mother, brother, and his wife, all of whom I do not really care for. Very awkward and uncomfortabl. I also spent 8+ hours looking at cars with no luck.

Just when I think I'm starting to get a little better about the ex, and we are having some open friendly dialogue, I stumble across some of our wedding stuff while I was at my parents. I can not imagine why that screwed me up again... oh wait, I'm still not quite where I need to be and that kind of thing still really bothers me and I just haven't quite been able to totally let her go.

I got back late this evening, and just about 40 minutes ago i got a text from the married friend to not call or text her anymore, cause I am ruining her marriage. Funny, I thought that being friends should be ok, but I understand that her husband doesn't like me, doesn't want me around, and I would not win if I tried to push a choice, and wished her well and offered my friendship down the road if wanted.

I'm suppose to go to the football game tomorrow. We'll see how that goes. I really hate my life.