2 For 1?

I've started, now a quick story, and then we'll see how often I update. I do not know how specific, graphic or other I will end up getting. We'll just find out as I go.

I am in my mid-20s, college graduate (top 20 football in the midwest), and on the outside appear to have to all together. Not too long ago I thought I did. I was, and still am, making good money, moving around and gaining valuable experience. I was engaged to a wonderful, intellegent, loving, beautiful, woman, the kind that everyone dreams about. We were planning the wedding, I moved to be closer, and then everything went to hell. I've always known that she has issues from her past, but I never realized to what degree that they were unresolved. Couple that with my taking her for granted and just taking my usual silver lining view of things, and I've managed to push her away. As of today its been almost two weeks since we've talked, almost a month since I've seen her, almost 5 months since she wanted "space" and just short of a year since I've felt like a real part of her life. On top of all this, I've gotten jealous and managed to forget how much I trust her, which has caused more problems (and is why we haven't talked lately). She was my everything, I truly love her.

To explain the name, I do have a dog. A mutt actually, but he is one of the most well behaved and exceptional buddies I've ever met. He knows both my and his mom's moods well, and adapts to the need. He has gotten me through a lot of rough times by refusing to leave my side. He is my main source of therapy, and as much as I hurt to look at him (since she gave him to me), I would be completely lost without him.

So much for the introductions, I'll probably add more specifics over time. We'll just see.